1 Drop at a Time

Jacob had his first breakdown today. Another friend's birthday was cancelled. He was excited to celebrate his friend and let's be honest and eat cake. This party was princess themed and all the girls in his class asked him to dress up as Olaf. Y'all know Jake Sheikh, he doesn't disappoint. He had me get an Olaf costume just for the occasion. Fast forward to today, I asked him if he'd like to record a video and say happy birthday to his friend. Well, his eyes filled with tears and I didn't know what to say. His words filled the void, "Mama, did another birthday get cancelled because of the virus?"  I couldn't lie, and told him yes, and he just cried. I held him and he vented his frustrations. I've been so caught up in the big picture and dangers, I forgot what the world looked like to a 5 year old. As a parent, there is a that fine line I walk of how much do I burden my child with and much do I protect him from? Jacob understands we are home t

Whew, my last  post  was a doozy but I am so glad I put it out there. I want to say thank you to everyone that reached out and checked on me. Over the weekend I was at church and a couple friends asked how I was feeling. Yet again, I felt the reminder that I am not alone. So, this week I decided to take a big leap. I've been on an anti-depressant for about 3 years now. It has been life saving and life changing. After being on it for about a month, it hit me just how anxious I had always been. Here I was taking it for depression, but I was also anxious as heck.  It was a breath of fresh air in my life and Osman's too. Go ahead, you can giggle. For a couple weeks now I've been toying with the idea of tapering off the medication. So I contacted my doctor and he worked out a taper plan. You might be wondering, why do I need to taper? For starters, you probably wouldn't want to be around me if I just stopped taking my medicine tomorrow. BUT the bigger reason is, there ca